Well that was an angry post.

i dunno why i'm so angry, but i'm not anymore. I dont love her anymore. i just think its the obsession. the possesion, the greatness of being alone while she's fucking around, i'm most angry at the fact she told me and many others that she doesnt want a relationship but in 2 months gets into one. thats all. isnt that fair enough to be angry. i'm going to die soon. thats also a fact. but i dont want to die alone yet i know i cannot have anyone because its unfair leaving that person behind. i really think that i want to be with someone that actually doesnt lie to me, and i swear i will never lie to a person i love again, it hurts too much. The one that got away doesnt matter now cause she got away. i am confident that i'll meet her again someday. But at this moment i want nothing but to be with someone, to care and to be cared for. i really dont want to be alone. not when i'm still here