Funny how life can treat u somedays. I wish u would just leave, your presence still lingers here. I held u're hand through all of these years, but u still left me. Funny i saw it coming and most probably i knew it would be better for me, but i'm bound to the life u left behind, Would it hurt u so bad to tell me the truth? I hate u... with all my heart i hate that i didnt see this pain coming. Time can bring u down, time can bend your knees, time break ur heart have u beg and plead, but thats not what i did , i just needed to hear it and you couldnt say it. Why have this ego when u know there'd be no more us. Funny.
I told u that no one would treat u how i treat u but there wasnt a reaction, and that was when i knew it couldnt be anymore, it was one way traffic. You'd be at home now sleeping peacefully when i'd be broken, yes i'd mend myself, i always do. When i was young i was depressed over someone, and yes i still regret that decision, i'm not the one to regret this thou. i'm just sad, and everybody knew i'd be sad, and i am. but i'm also angry, no more deep words can come out from my mouth, from my head, because those words are beautiful, and my mind isnt so beautiful right now. but something good to say about u.....
My tears gone cold i wonder why, i will get out of bed alone
The morning rain outside the window, reminds me its gonna be bad
My head just feels in pain, it might imply that i might not last the day
but then u call me and then its not so bad
Even if my house fell down i wouldnt have a clue because u were near me
And i want to thank you for giving me the best years of my life, and just to be with you was the best thing in my life.
if u just walked away what could i really say, would it matter anyway?
i'm the mess u chose the closet u could never close
And the wounds would never heal
so u sailed away, into that grey skyed morning
And i'm here to stay.
It may take sometime to patch me up inside
When i cant take it i'd run away and hide
I may find in time that u were right
you were always right.
and then some thing u should know about how i was before, exactly how i felt before i met u and how i feel now.
My mouth as a crib and it was growing lies
parts of tiny blood clots have picked at it
it never heals and never goes away
burn all the good things in the edens eye
we were too dumb to run
too dead to die
this was never my world u took the angel away
I would have killed myself to make everybody pay
I would have told her then
she was the only thing
that i could love in this dying world
But the simple word of love itself already died and went away.
Her hearts are blood stains today,
we didnt handle with care
its broken in the end
and we can never repair.
There was something cold and blank behind her smile,
she was standing in an overpass in a miracle mile
Cause she was from a perfect world
a world that threw me away today
to run away
I was waiting to fall, just bleeding like a polaroid that has lost its dolls
Just cut our wrists like cheap coupons and say that death was on sale today.
Pills to make u numb, pills to make u dumb
pills to make u anybody else
But all the pills in this world wont save me from myself.
i know who i am and I know what i want to say and i don't care who is listening
I just wanna remember what u used to be some one that could fucking impress me.
Push my fingers into my eyes, its the only thing that slowly stops the ache but its made of all the things i have to take.
Taking her time right behind my back,
i talking to myself cause i cant forget
back and forth through my mind behind a cigarette
and a message going through my mind says leave it alone
and i'm bleeding and bleeding right before the lord
i'll bleed all the words out and i will live no more
