perfect....that word passes me by everyday of my life. I let perfect go by every 3 months or so. Im so happy for you but also im unhappy....Im unhappy now because what is true is always alone....so the truth is loneliness. Thats the truth. I will never find anyone as good and that accepts me for who i am... and that, says alot.
Today my best friend got what he wanted, what he really wanted for all his life he has wanted it. I on the other hand felt abandoned. I felt as though as i am alone now in this world. He left me there to find somrthing i could never find. He found it and im extremely happy for him. I keep like i accomplished an impossible task and then i realized that it wasnt that impossible. I now realize that getting my own... is impossible and i feel abandoned. i feel like i will never find perfect. I feel like crying. I feel like dying. This feeling wont go away.... Not now and i feel...not ever. I keep watching people pass by in packages and im just sitting around alone and waiting for the bus that never arrives.
