Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkan mu. Still i have the pain i have to carry, 1 and a half years since i lost you and i cant begin to imagine if i had no hope of finding u again. I have loved you more than you could have ever known. i miss all of our hearts, our ups and our downs i miss u and all of your faults. Your faults are now to me ur best features. I cannot imagine how much pain ive gone through i cannot explain how many times ive died in my sleep, ow many times ive died when im awake. My mind is dead already, i cannot think i cannot live with the hope i hang on to and that hope is slowly but surely slipping away. i miss everything about u, and i hate that i have to say it. i hate it.
You were my perfect time, when we were all together and time passed ever so slowly. That was my perfect time. When i felt that my world revolved around yours and yours around mine. No one really reads this blog so it doesnt really matter. You are my everything now seeing your name on Facebook or on my phone, is devastating i left early that day its because i couldnt bare being around you. Lim Chin Lee. Spelling your name out sends shivers to my mind, to my bones and it stricken-ed my soul. Im broken now but you were always my perfect time, and always will be. I want u to to know this, i hope u can see my words to u. I hope u will see this one day i hope that you would care. I really fucking miss you. If you would just talk to me! if i could just be near u, be ur friend i would do it. Anything u wish of me i'd be it whetehr it be a friend or a lover or a brother i'd be there. I just need u near me. I need u. Thats all i'll ever need. My perfect time.
If i would meet u speak to u again, my words would be" Hello, ive missed u. wanna go for some lunch? then maybe we could catch up with our lives again and maybe just maybe i could learn how to live again" Her reply would be " HAH?! WHAT AH?" " Aw okay lo" and i would just smile.
