Hope

Funny how i lived through my last ordeal by hoping. Now i realized that it wasn't by hoping but it was by the support of my friends mostly. Some of these friends i've treated some what unfairly but till now i still care and i still love them all. But back to the main point, i have just realized that hope stabs you in the back most of the time and although it helps u go alone your journey but in the end it kills you. So whats the point? I used to say that Hope is the things that leads us through our darkest times and our toughest toils, which i guess was true then. Now? yeah, no, mmmhm not so true after all. times being dark are times made to be dark, toils which are tough are meant to be tough and you know why? because these toils and these times are all made for us to walk on. So hope doesnt help shit, it just makes you think it helps and when u reach your destination all hope is gone except for disappointment, and sadness. If you noticed, then hope is what is fabricated and imagined and if you noticed, a lot of the good feelings are not really there, they're made up to counter the feelings that are really there such as sorrow, anger, disappointment, pain, fear and death. Every one of these has a fabricated counter, if u think about it, if your don't then u can continue living your ignorant life. Its fine because 99% of the people in this place are ignorant so why not you ( person reading ), just follow the flow of the people around u and have your little illusions and continue to embrace false feelings. its alright because its not real.

Learn to embrace the feelings that are thrown at you, for when it gets tough for others then you don't feel so alone.

Being alone, really doesnt matter because millions of people are alone but what matters is having somebody
Never let yourself tear apart the things you love and who love you back.
Lastly, for people like me or used to be like me, then hello, i don't feel lonely anymore

but then again i lie.