the hills and sun have more light now, and u dont compare.

ok people this is gonna be a short one cause i have retarded lil dumbass on my right. this lil dumbass was someone i could have called one of the ones. i have just realized not so long ago that i was wrong. this is because she doesnt know, she hasnt learnt, she hasnt learnt to be a person yet, a person with feelings, a person that doesnt care, that doesnt look. i have aged far beyond what i was before, and i cannot expect that much from her, cause when i was her age, i didnt care. she has that attitude where if god crossed her she take all his drugs and burn all his money and his house down. i've never actually blogged about someone in this way before right into their face. offended? prolly not. u havent hit me yet. funny right how i think of u now compared to the time before? why do u think i didnt plan anything special for today... i was going to. lucky i didnt eh? i should have? i dont really care anymore, but when he does hurt u i'll always be here. this is so fun. u like it huh? hmmmmm.... then really tell me what u think honestly, when i've already said so much "offensive" things.helllllloooooooooo...nothing my ass. u basking in ur ex? yeah i know. i'm lucky i dont care anymore. i'm lucky i didnt love u the minute u broke up, i'm lucky i remember what hurtful things they did to me, when i treated them like princes and princesses. i loved u alot. yes yes it was really actually love. because i genuinely thought i could love u, that u could have loved me back, i was blind, stupid, but now u cant say nothing to touch me. although i do still enjoy the company, and i do enjoy being around u. and i do still miss u everytime u go home. everytime we stop talking. but it doesnt matter now, or will never matter. i'm still broken, but i'm not unrepairable. i just feel very used, i feel very angry. read read read cause i dont care anymore, u're lost to me theres always a space for u, eventhough it'll never been filled. but no hope or expectations will be put in cause u dont deserve my hope.