Something good isnt always something good for you.

sometimes i blog or write down my feelings, i know this sounds uber gay but sometimes i need to write something about somebody most of the times its bad, cynical, sarcastic, whatever but this time its all good. but good doesnt mean for me. if u get what i mean.

 i told u before, she is my sun, but then again u're the moon, ur the thing i see everytime everything gets dark. I know that sounds like i'm using u, but thats not true, i truly do care for u. you're like the thing i hang on to when i see the people i loved before change and become someone i dont know anymore but thats also the reason i cannot give u what u want. But in that flaw, in that injustice, i will always be there for u, youve got me always here. i make u smile i make u laugh, but  i didnt deserve the treats, i didnt deserve that laugh or that smile or those hugs. i didnt deserve u. You're genuinely a good person, u havent had a bad thought in ur mind, not a bad bone in your body. So i have done bad things in my life, i'm complicated but simple as u described it but i'm definitely imperfect. i'm a burden actually. its okay, these past few days i've been disturbing u, being kwai lan as u call it, don pay any attention to me. i'm just a stupid lil boy. I told chin this and she threw it away, i told her that everyday when i wake up i'll see her face and i told her that i'll never stop loving her, and at that time i meant it, truly but then she shifted her attention and gave her love elsewhere, i'm fine with that now but now these things said cannot be resaid so i'll never tell u these lines but i'll tell u that i'll be ur sky so when ever it gets bad for u, u know i've got u, and u know that everytime it seems like there isnt something to look forward to u just gotta look up and there i am. i'll be someone u can look forward to seeing, for whatever purpose, whether to make u smile or to make u laugh, i'll be there. U can count on me, because the sky never lets u down its always there, even if sometimes u cant see it.   I 'm sorry for hurting you, but blame her, not yourself