Wreck

This is the first post in 3 years.

I've refrained from posting here in the longest time. It's because this is the place is where all of my greatest pains reside. I've left so many memories in the dust here. I've refused to think about the pain, about the pride lost. The graveness of everything I've ever held dear; is in this place.

Today is another one of those moments, which I have to deposit here.

You came into my life as a gift

Came without sorrow, warning or thrift

They said no and I said yes

I was willing to take every test

Willing to do what it took

Bleed, cry, fight and cook

And you gave me your heart

I cherished it right from the start

But you take it away

At any time of day

Then it comes to me again'

And I feel the straining pain

Of never keeping in at bay

Never being able to make it stay

You say you trust my whole

But never have you questioned my soul

I will leave my heart at the door, wont say a word

They've all been said before

All I ask is this, if this is my last night with you

Hold me like i'm more than just a friend, give me a memory i can use

I'm scared of what is coming next

I'm scared of the times that I have nothing left

No one's known me like you do

And since you're the only one that matters, now who do i run to?

Hold my hand, and lets do what lovers do.

All of this is because; it matters how this ends

Cause what if I never love again?

Charmaine Marn Ri Hui.