An answer to a question...

If your life story as made into a film directored and acted out by your favorite actor/actresses. How do you want your feminity and masculinity to be projected on screen?

To directly answer that question, it would be tremendously difficult. The answer I’m going to give you is going to be full of what I think of masculinity and feminity, my characters and how the film will portray a person’s certain gender.

My characters will not be projected in a direct way, of course my character would be a man but this man isn’t a bold, adventurous, strong or even brave. He is me, the sleeper. The person that is in every class, every tutorial, everywhere, a person that is left alone, a person with no one to talk to, the loner if you must say. Although sense of masculinity is always present, the audience will definitely know he is a man, boy, male. And surely enough he doesn’t come to class, he loves the world, outside this one, his own little world that he lives in everyday, he loves his world outside of school.

If so happen my life would be made into a film, audience will not know his pain until they realize that in some point of their own lives, they have felt exactly the same, especially the first day of work, where unfriendly eyes meet you in every direction, No one really to confide your fear, phobia and uneasy-ness to. And yet when people look at him, they can sense that he is a loner he has no friends, but still he is strong and his will is what brings him through life, that is masculinity to me, the ability to prove yourself or to survive through dark and lonely times and stay stagnant, unmoved by the rigors of life. That is masculinity, to be able to live life, and in between, laugh about the good parts and still continue to suffer life as it is.

In the end of my movie the audience will understand that this boy has had enough with his life although only being at the age of probably 25, not married, no friends, useless job and mostly unhappy and depressed, that is what happens to people that have no will, or just have taken too much punishment in their lives. Those are truly depressed people. My character will be projected as a person drifting through time with only the masculinity given to him by his natural gender and probably by his age, rigors that he has been through and his independent lifestyle. Masculinity is but a heritage and masculinity is only a cover, a mask of your true self esteem.

Hope is actually masculinity hidden under the sheets of shallowness

And Hope guides us through our Darkest Times and our Toughest Toils