The sweetest thing

Funny eh how life works? Its just so ever changing, one day we are doing things that make us feel good, but we know its bad... the next thing we knoe, actually this is my perception... i used to do things that make me feel good but i know are bad, but now i know that feeling good and doing good, feels much better feeling free and surrounded by people that are spontaneous and sure of themselves is basic bliss, but i and only i know the truth of this feeling, a feeling a blissful thinking about a life without responsibilities.. i know this life cannot last, it cannot be a forever thing thats why i cherish it, i'm even hurting now just because i'm taking time to write this post about it... but i want to remember how much i had enjoyed how much i felt free... no more pain no more times where i felt like theres no reason, but there is a reason only one reason... actually two...one is to be in love, the other, living for this feeling, a feeling that cannot be erased, theres only one thins that could complete my life, i want to me my only one my one for me, the one that could make my life worth living for... i might have already but god can't be so cruel to let her pass by already could he, please, please god, don't let it be her... I want some thats not just another brick in the wall...